Today is August 26th, the Eve of your first birthday and I find myself overwhelmed with emotion. While excited to start your second year of life, I cannot believe this first year is coming to an end.
A year ago today, I sat in an hospital bed eager to hold you in my arms. I don’t remember as much as I would like due to the drugs I was given, but I do remember the first time your skin touched mine. The first latch and the first time you looked into my eyes.
Becoming your mother has been the greatest gift I have ever received. The long nights, the many tears I shed the first few months, the fears that I would never be good enough, are now all distant memories. With your hugs, your kisses and the sound of the word “mama” coming from your sweet lips, I have settled into my role and am relishing in it.
The simple touch of your hand is enough to make the troubles of the world melt away. Hearing your joyous laughter is enough to make the entire world seem brighter. The sight of your tears, breaks my heart more than I ever thought it could ache.
I see the world with different eyes, those of a mother.
I know I am not perfect. I know I will make mistakes. I know that we will argue. But at the end of the day, I will always be your mother until I draw my final breath, and that makes everything ahead a journey I am looking forward to sharing with you.
On the Eve of the end of this first year, my wish for you is that you always see the world with the same delight you see it now. That you never loose your ability to express your feelings, especially love. And that embrace your passions no matter what.
I love you my darling daughter. I thank you for loving me, your mother. And I cannot wait to watch you grow into the beautiful person you are already becoming.
Congratulations on your first year of life and wishing you many, many more!