Mama McFee is Motivated

Ellie HeartHappy International Women’s Day!  If you do not know, March is Women’s History Month and today, March 8th, is International Women’s Day.  It’s a time to celebrate our past, our present and our future.  But to me, it is so much more!

Today, I start a new phase.  I am following my heart – as my daughter inspires me to do every day.  I am starting a blog about being “Mama McFee”.  Please note, this is not a blog necessarily about being a mother, a wife, a daughter…etc.  But for me, it will be a blog about passion, about motivation, about how #ItsTime to stand up and make some real changes.  Yes, I’m latching on to my company’s #ItsTime movement and as a leader and a woman, I feel it IS time for me to let my voice be heard…well, read.

So let’s start with some facts about me.  I want to use this blog to share my journey, to muse on life and to maybe start some conversations with the world community.

I must admit, I did look up the word “muse” and here is what it said:  to think about something carefully or thoroughly;  to think or say (something) in a thoughtful way.  That’s my goal – although, we shall see if I achieve it.

Here are 15 facts to get us going (it just worked out to be 15) – and remember, the best thing anyone can do for another human is to not judge what they don’t understand or have not experienced.  (Just needed to put that out there!  :-))

  1. Yes – I am a woman.  Ok, so now that we have that understood.
  2. I am a daughter, a wife, a mother, a sister-in-law, a friend (I hope), a colleague and a boss.
  3. I am 40 – well 41 in 20 days. But who is counting?!  I just want birthday cake.
  4. I have crazy nuances – I will not refer to them as OCD, though others might.  For example: a chair on my patio is not aligned properly with the patio table. It bothers me and I will have to go straighten it.  Actually, let me go do that now…
  5. I was married at 24 – which was old amongst my friends in the south.  Yes, now I realize just how young I was.
  6. I married someone from Australia.  Yes – he has a great accent.  Yes – it is/was romantic.  But he is from another country, so there are struggles.  Despite what all Americans think, there are countries even more awesome than ours.
  7. I had my first child, a daughter, at 39.  It was via IVF; it was only one round.  She is my miracle, my everything.  And I’m exhausted!  What mother isn’t?
  8. NO – I will not be having other children, and I am content with that.  Everyone asks, so I want to get that straight from the beginning.
  9. I am from Alabama. I went to Auburn University (not Alabama) and yes, I love college football.
  10. My BS is in Fashion Merchandising (no it is not a degree in shopping); and I have an MS in Consumer Affairs.  Yes – they are real degrees and I am proud of them!
  11. I suffer from depression, but who doesn’t in this world; and I struggle with an anxiety disorder.  That’s a tough one to put out there, as we so often hide these things.  But it’s something I want to talk about in my “Musings”.
  12. I did grow up with educated/intelligent parents that both worked VERY hard.  I had a “nanny” that kept me in the afternoons until I was 18.  I had a car at 16 – so yes, I had things, lots of them.  I was spoiled.  But I also understand hard work and know what it is like to lose almost everything.
  13. My father is a transgendered female.  I found out when I was 22.  I did not handle it well.  And yes, I accept, but still struggle.  Not everyone is Caitlyn Jenner with millions of dollars and a TV show.  But I am VERY proud of her and am working on building a relationship to teach my daughter acceptance of all people.
  14. I have a fabulous job.  Even on days I hate it, I love it!  Most people do not understand what I do.  But I know I can make a difference, and that means everything.
  15. I know and accept that I am NOT perfect…well, most days.  Yes – I try to be wonder woman every day!  It’s what we do!

And so, there we have it!  That is me. The things I celebrate;  the things I hate;  the things I cannot change.

On this 2016 International Women’s Day, pause and reflect on ALL women that make up this amazing world we are blessed to live in.

Look at yourself in the mirror and do what my daughter does – kiss yourself!  There is nothing wrong with that.  It’s awesome!  I know, I’ve tried it.

Come with me on this journey if you like.  Share with me.  Take me on your journey.

Let’s “Muse” together!!!

Welcome to my pregnancy journey!

2014 was one of the most exciting years I have ever had. Both happy and scary all at the same time. My dreams of becoming a mother were finally happening. But at the age of 38 (almost 39), I was a geriatric mother which meant more tests and more worries for a safe baby. As with everything, I tried to find the positive in the journey.

1 – we got to see lots of photos of our little one. Almost once a month!

2 – we knew she was a girl without a doubt. A positive of chromosome testing.

3 – we knew her exact due date, no questions there since it was IVF.

4 – we had the support of a very large community around the world that had been waiting with us for this time of our lives.

So I took to writing, just as I had done through the journey to get pregnant, to share all of the craziness that is pregnancy.

Hope you enjoy this journey as much as I do the trip down memory lane. Pregnancy isn’t always glamorous, but it sure can be fun.

Get ready for Growing weeMcFee!

Please remember: the blog starts at the last entry, so click here to start with the first blog.

To my daughter on your 1st birthday.

Today is August 26th, the Eve of your first birthday and I find myself overwhelmed with emotion. While excited to start your second year of life, I cannot believe this first year is coming to an end.

A year ago today, I sat in an hospital bed eager to hold you in my arms. I don’t remember as much as I would like due to the drugs I was given, but I do remember the first time your skin touched mine. The first latch and the first time you looked into my eyes.

Becoming your mother has been the greatest gift I have ever received. The long nights, the many tears I shed the first few months, the fears that I would never be good enough, are now all distant memories. With your hugs, your kisses and the sound of the word “mama” coming from your sweet lips, I have settled into my role and am relishing in it.

The simple touch of your hand is enough to make the troubles of the world melt away. Hearing your joyous laughter is enough to make the entire world seem brighter. The sight of your tears, breaks my heart more than I ever thought it could ache.

I see the world with different eyes, those of a mother.

I know I am not perfect. I know I will make mistakes. I know that we will argue. But at the end of the day, I will always be your mother until I draw my final breath, and that makes everything ahead a journey I am looking forward to sharing with you.

On the Eve of the end of this first year, my wish for you is that you always see the world with the same delight you see it now. That you never loose your ability to express your feelings, especially love. And that embrace your passions no matter what.

I love you my darling daughter. I thank you for loving me, your mother. And I cannot wait to watch you grow into the beautiful person you are already becoming.

Congratulations on your first year of life and wishing you many, many more!

First Christmas…Done and Got the t-shirt!

x-mas dayAll I can say is WOW! I think I’ve been in a constant state of shock and wonderment for an entire month now. This Christmas thing is pretty intense. From the lights, to the people, to the clothes, to those present things…it’s been a whirlwind of a month.

Aside from Christmas, I have also had a busy month since mastering the art of rolling over before Thanksgiving. I now roll over in all directions, and like to keep mommy and daddy guessing which way I will go next. I have also started laughing and cooing much more and sometimes I just crack myself up with giggles. The week of December 8th, I started to work more on crawling and right before Christmas I figured out I have to pull my legs and bottom in the air to scoot. With a little more practice, I know I’ll get this figured out. Sitting up has also been a priority for me, and while I don’t have it completely mastered, I am starting to really work my stomach muscles with trying to pull up. Mommy bought me a new chair that I love, with toys and a tray. It’s so nice to not have to lay around all the time.

This month also brought my first time away from mommy when she had to go on a trip for work. I still am not sure where she went, but I had a nice week with my daddy and was such a good girl. I slept through the night almost every night and had lots of daddy-Ellie playtime. By the time mommy got home, I was so excited I could not sleep much for a day or so.

Nana and Poppie came a few days before Christmas and mommy put me in all sorts of new outfits and took my picture almost every day. It was tiring, but I tried to give her smiles each time since she and Nana kept saying how pretty I was.  Be sure to check out all of my great outfits – Ellie’s Holiday Photo Shoot.

By the time Christmas arrived, I was already pretty excited and struggling to sleep every night. I just didn’t want to miss anything as I knew they were having fun when I was asleep. On Christmas Eve we went up the street to the lobby of the hotel where we live and they introduced me to this person called Santa. Supposedly he travels the world bringing toys and I need to be a good girl so I will get presents. I received a nice letter from him before we met, saying he was so excited to add me to his list this year.  He seemed ok, but I think I like my Poppie just as well…his beard is better.

PresentsOn Christmas morning I woke up to mommy and daddy’s smiles and cuddles and all sorts of pretty presents from Santa and Nana & Poppie. It didn’t take me long to figure out what a present was and that you have to rip off paper to get to the goody inside. After a while I was giving mommy direction on how to do it and trying to get her to do it faster. I loved my presents but have decided that two things are my favorite. A Hello Kitty block from Santa and a pelican with a large orange squeaky nose from Nana.

Again, WOW! I think I need another nap just writing it all down. Tomorrow I will turn four months old. Mommy says this will be another big month with lots of new things. I’m excited, but I think I’ll go grab a nap so I’m ready.

Wishing everyone a wonderful Christmas!

Love & cuddles,

Sleepy baby

Rolling, rolling, rolling…

IMG_3899My three month birthday has come and gone and now I’m on the move and ready to take on the world.  Ok, so I have only started to roll over, but that walking thing is next…right?

Month three has been so much fun and full of even more adventures.  A few days before Thanksgiving I finally got this rolling over thing down.  Mommy and daddy were overjoyed, clapping and taking video.  I had been tricking them for a few days doing it while they were not watching, but finally I decided enough was enough.  After that I realized that rolling over was just the beginning, and now I need to get the hang of this crawling thing.  Of course if I could just get traction on my mat, that would help.  I really just want to bypass this whole crawling thing and get to walking.  I get so frustrated that mommy and daddy do not seem to understand and keep putting me down when all I want to do is stand.  So I’ll keep working at it.

The biggest excitement for me the past few weeks was a road trip to Fairhope, Alabama where my mommy grew up.  It was a very long day of riding (over eight hours) and I slept most of the way since there is not that much to see.  Mommy and daddy brought all of my favorite things, but it still wasn’t home, so I was a little off the first couple of days.  But soon I realized how much fun it was with people like Nana and Poppie hugging and playing with me all day.   Every night I was so tired that I finally started sleeping from 8pm until 5:30 or 6:00 am each morning.  Mommy was so shocked the first night, but now they are both used to it.  Too bad I cannot promise that I’ll stick to the new schedule with my hungry tummy and my gums starting to hurt.IMG_3773

Mommy took me around to meet new family and friends and we even visited the toy store she went to when she was little.  I was very excited looking at all of those toys and I cannot wait until we go back when I am bigger.

On Thanksgiving we had a big celebration.  It started with watching something mommy called a parade on the television and ended with Poppie and I celebrating our birthdays.  I also got to meet Miss Nelda who is 93.  She was friends with my Nana right before my mommy was born and is my adopted great-grandma.  She was very sweet and gave me a good cuddle.

Despite all of the fun, I was very glad to come home and spent quite some time laughing and stretching on my mat.

IMG_4248Mommy says now we are in something called the Christmas season.  She has been so excited, decorating the house with some of the prettiest and most amazing things.  I am mesmerized by the Christmas tree and the blinking lights and love my stocking and pretty clothes.  We have been taking lots of photos and I try to give mommy smiles, but sometimes all I want to do is play.  The grounds of where we live are also all decorated with lots of lights and we went to my first neighborhood outing with singing and lots of people.  I wasn’t too sure of everything as it was very loud, but daddy held me tight and they both sang along with the choir, dancing with me.

I feel like I need a nap just writing everything down that has occurred the past three weeks.  It has been so exciting and I am taking it one day at a time as we get closer to Christmas.  Every day is something new and I’m not always certain about it all, but as I always say, with mommy and daddy holding on to me, I know I am ready for whatever comes our way.

Love to everyone and Happy Holidays!



PS – here are some other photos of our Christmas fun so far.  Cannot wait for the next few weeks.

Miss Nelda & I.
I am a happy baby elf.
My first Christmas Tree
One of my fun Christmas outfits.




A carseat with a view

IMG_2824Another month has passed in my young life and soon I will be headed to the big 12 week milestone.  My second month of living as a McFee was full of more adventure than one twenty-three inch person can stand.  All I can say is thank goodness I like my carseat/stroller combo.  If not, mommy and daddy would be in big trouble.

Since my last post, life has continued to be filled with adjustments and many more firsts.  Some I enjoyed, some I hated, and some I just didn’t understand.

We celebrated my two month birthday with a visit to the pediatrician.  I have decided I really like my doctor.  He is very nice and gentle and seems to make mommy and daddy smile.  I even gave him a smile myself when he spoke to me.  His nurse, on the other hand, I will stay away from next time.  She stuck me three times in the legs which really hurt.  And they didn’t even give me a warning.  Thank goodness daddy was there to scoop me up and give me a cuddle.

I was pretty sleepy after that ordeal (and some yummy tasting stuff they called Tylenol).  Mommy and daddy said they had something very important to do called “voting”, so off we went again.  I was curious what this “voting” thing was as mommy and daddy were very serious.  They said it was something that I will do when I am much older and had to do with all of those loud people on television saying bad things about each other.  All I know is that I’m glad that it is all over and now the silly, singing people are back on the television.

HalloweenAt the end of that week we had something called “Halloween”.  Mommy put me in this orange outfit with a hat, saying I looked cute, but I felt kind of silly.  She and daddy made me take photos with a pumpkin and I was not amused.  My favorite part of the day was taking a walk to Publix. It was so pretty outside and people kept stopping in the shop to say how cute I was.  I decided that my pumpkin outfit might not be so bad, since so many people smiled at me.  Mommy explained that when I am much bigger we will do something called trick or treating where people give you yummy sweet stuff.  I am not so sure I understand all of this, but if mommy and daddy think it will be fun, then I’ll give it a try.

As for mommy being back to work, she and I now have special time just us when I first wake up in the morning and then in the evening for either a walk or playtime.  I am glad that she works from home so that she can give me kisses at lunchtime and I really enjoy when she plays with me.  I have started trying to grab more but really do not like tummy time anymore.  I just don’t get it and prefer to stand where I can see everything.  Mommy and daddy both continue to try to put me down so I will learn to roll over, so I’m trying.  But I would much rather just learn to use these legs of mine and walk around like they do.  Sometimes it’s just not fair.

mommys handAs I come to the end of another month in a couple of weeks, I am so eager to continue to learn and to get out with mommy and daddy and see this big beautiful world.  I hear this is a month to say what we are thankful for and even though I’m only 10 weeks old, I am very thankful for a cozy bassinet, yummy milk, and a mommy and daddy that love me as much as mine do.  I’m also thankful for you, all of my friends and family across the world, and all the love you send me.

Sending you all my love and hugs,




Will smile, sleep, whatever you want, for food!

War EagleHappy 8 week birthday to me and congratulations to my mommy and daddy for making it through these first exciting weeks of my life.  It’s been three weeks since my last blog and mommy says that’s because she has been so busy taking care of me; but I think it’s because she uses my nap time to either sleep or catch up on her television shows.  And she says that her world revolves around me – whatever!

So what have I been up to the last three weeks?  Not much really, unless you consider sleeping longer, laughing, pushing up and grasping my toys something to celebrate.  Mommy and daddy think everything I do is so exciting and I am often confused by their constant laughter, clapping of hands and numerous cuddles when I try something new.  I see them doing all of these things and I know I can do them if I just work at it, so I give everything a try.  I will admit that I get very frustrated during my tummy time as I just don’t understand why my arms and legs won’t do what I want them to do.  But I know I will eventually get it and if all of these things make my mommy and daddy happy, then of course I am a happy girl.

While I have been working on my skills, mommy and daddy have been working hard to get me on a schedule in preparation for mommy to go back to something she calls “work” next week.  I’m not sure what this “work” is all about, but supposedly she will have to sit at the computer talking all day long.  I seem to remember a lot of talking when I was in her tummy and if that is what “work” is then I won’t mind her doing it in her office while I swing, sleep, play – you know, have my typically awesome day.

As for the schedule, when it comes to eating, I am all about them knowing when it’s time to get me my food as I love to eat.  I would eat all the time if my tummy did not get full and make me spit up.  I have heard mommy say that I am definitely related to my family as they all love food.  Mommy says she cannot wait until my next doctor appointment to see how big I have gotten.  My eye is still on the prize of my fabulous closet, so bring on the food.

Other than food, the other area I have been happy to work on with them is sleeping.  They finally have realized that I prefer to be awake and playing most of the day, no matter what the books and Google say.  I now let them have a five hour and then a four hour stint every night.  This makes them give me tons of kisses each morning so I reward them with smiles and laughs.   It is a nice way for all of us to start the day.

The favorite part of my schedule each day is our walk to the beach.  I love hearing the daddys lovewaves and feeling the wind on my face.  I often stick my tongue out to taste the salty air and mommy and daddy play with me while we sit and relax in the evenings.  The beach air also makes me feel very sleepy, and I am usually ready for my evening nap after dinner.

All in all, the past three weeks have been wonderful.  I may give them a hard time every now and then, but I must admit I love my mommy and daddy.  And now that I know it only takes a smile, I can even work them more than I did in the past.  Not that I think they mind.

Hugs and love to everyone,



One month down…a lifetime to go!

IMG_1405I recently turned one month old and it has definitely been an exciting first month of life.  As you can imagine, I have had a lot of firsts in the past few weeks and life has been pretty hectic as daddy, mommy and I try to find a routine.  I must admit that I haven’t made it easy on them, but then again, this is the first time I have lived this life and so I am still figuring everything out myself.

Beginning with my first car ride home from the hospital which was also mommy’s first ride in our new car (daddy said only the best ride for me) and ending last week with the first time I pushed up with my arms to hold my head during tummy time – it’s been an exciting few weeks.  I have experienced my first ride in my stroller, which I loved even though I usually sleep through our daily walks;  daddy and mommy introduced me to the beach and dipped my toes into the cold water; and I had my first bath, which I was not that keen on since I am not one to be without my clothes.  My first shopping trip was when I was three days old to Babies R Us, because I had been so good at the hospital getting my follow-up blood test.  And I have become a regular at Target which sometimes I am in the mood for and other times not so much.

I have also had some firsts which were a little sooner than mommy and daddy had hoped.  When I am hungry I am not choosey and so I will suckle on anything you give me, even the pediatrician’s hand which made him laugh.  Mommy and I continued to struggle with latching, so I am now getting her yummy milk through bottles.  I know she was sad about this, but I must admit that it is so much easier for us both and boy can I really eat some food.  At my second pediatrician visit to check my weight, I had gained a whole pound since I was born and have grown nearly two inches.  Mommy says I will be out of newborn clothes in the next couple of weeks, and I cannot wait to start wearing my 0-3 months clothes hanging in my closet.  Watch out fashion world!

The most exciting things we have shared of firsts are my smiles and laughs.  Everyone knows the first smiles are not necessarily because I’m happy, but in the past few weeks I have started giving mommy and daddy more “real smiles” and I have a tendency to laugh in my sleep sometimes.  My favorite thing that makes me smile and laugh is tummy time.  Daddy plays a game with me where I push my feet against his hand and move across my mat.  I love it and cannot wait to figure out these two things that hang by my sides (I hear they are called arms) so I can get on the move without daddy’s help.

And of course there have been the first cooing, yelling and tears.  I am getting more and more vocal when I want things and when mommy and daddy don’t get it quite right.  I don’t mean to be hard on them, but once they learn my language this will all be much easier.

At the end of the day, I love mommy and daddy very much.  They do so much for me, kissing me more than I can stand sometimes and telling me they love me every minute.  Life is pretty good here in Palm Coast, FL and my first month of life has been a lot of fun.

I cannot wait to see what the second month has in store for the three of us.  One thing for sure is I have these two right where I want them and they wouldn’t have it any other way.



PS – check out some photos from my first month.


One week old, wearing the bonnet my mommy came home from the hospital in back in March 1975.



Mommy, Nana and I when I was 3 weeks old.




Mommy loves looking at me – 3 weeks old.


Hello World!

imageToday I am three weeks old and to celebrate, mommy & I are starting my new blog, not that I know what a blog is.  Mommy says this is a way for me to share my adventures with our many family & friends all over the world.  That sounds a bit overwhelming for my age when tummy time is so exhausting.  But I am a product of  my parents, so I might as well start embracing my curios and adventurous spirit now.

First, I want to send out cuddles and love to everyone for all of the email, texts, social media posts and the wonderful goodies I have received.  I felt the love of so many on my birthday and just knew I made the right decision on coming out of mommy’s belly.  Ok, I admit, the doctor had to coax me out, but I was a bit nervous about meeting mommy & daddy.

After all that time in the dark hearing those two voices, and one more than most (my mommy can really talk), I must admit I was not sure about what was on the other side of the tummy.  But now that I am here, I am loving seeing and hearing so many wonderful things.  It is true that we do not have it all down yet and I often have to yell to help them understand, especially when they change my nappy which I hate; but the cuddles and the smiles make it all worth while.

I have decided that my daddy is hilarious.  He is always making funny faces and the way he reacts when I have a not so nice nappy almost makes changing time bearable.  He is so much fun when we play on my matt everyday and his beard tickles me when he smothers me with kisses.

Mommy is very gentle and my favorite time is after she has fed me and I snuggle on her shoulder.  She also makes a great dinner, even though daddy says she cannot cook.  I don’t know what she makes for him, but my milk is awesome.  And we are getting better at our feeding strategy as I am a bit stubborn in my approach (supposedly I have a double dose of stubborn independence).

As for mommy and daddy’s thoughts on me, they say that I am lovely, gorgeous, wonderful…but a noisy sleeper.  I guess I dream a lot and make a lot of sounds that keep them up at night.  I don’t remember what I dream, but I bet it’s all about what we do each day and what they say we will do in the future (or could be mommy’s milk as that stuff puts me in what the call a milk coma – it really is awesome!)

And so for now, life is all about learning and experiencing new things.  I cannot wait until I am bigger to start my travels to meet many of you (supposedly Target and Walmart are not real trips, who knew?).   I promise to keep you all updated on my progress and to share the laughs that will be a part of growing up with my silly parents.

Love to everyone!